Although, I'll be honest, most days it looks absolutely nothing like this.
Instead of sitting on the shoulders of these beautiful women everyday (I wish),
I'm usually found sitting alone at my desk, behind a glowing Mac computer screen with coffee in hand and an epically porportioned handwritten to-do list.
See exciting home office picture below.
So, lots of people ask me,
"What's your average work day like?"
"You really want to know...?"
I laughingly respond.
Well, it usually go a little something like this:
Everyday, I wake up in the morning, roll out of bed...take a couple of steps outside of my bedroom...and boom!
I'm in my office.
Yes, I know...I have the best commute in all of Los Angeles/Orange County.
So yeah, most days its just me, myself and I.
Before anything else can get ahold of me.
I try and take about 10-20 minutes to start off my day with God. I start playing some music outta my living room speakers, I crack open the bible, sometimes I write and journal, other times I just sit, soak and pray (aka sleepily stare at a wall 'cause it's early).
It sounds kinda funny, but each day, I go to God like he's my boss and it's my first day on the job.
And I come to him saying,
“Okay, boss. I do not know what is going to be asked or required of me today…
but show me how to do whatever comes my way.
I know this is the work you have called me to do,
so I know you’ll show me how to do it.
If you've called me to it — you’ll bring me through it, right?”
And He’s all like, “Right. Now get to work.”
And then it begins.
The texts, emails and occasional calls from Uganda begin to pour in.
With a 9 hour time difference, you sure do wake up to a lot.
Once those are handled, I begin tackling the to-do list.
This is the part where it gets kinda crazy.
One moment I’m editing up photos, creating a promo video or freshenin’ up our website,
then the next moment I’m calling suppliers from China in search of fabrics, zippers and materials to source for our new line, as well as figuring out a way to internationally ship it all,
without it costing a legitimate arm and a leg.
I have talked to suppliers in New York, Los Angeles, China, India, Ohio, Florida, the list goes on.
Once I hang up with them, I’m either sketching up new bag ideas or designing leather labels,
or I’m checking up on our Quickbooks, getting an advice from our volunteer accountant,
and figuring out how to budget, fundraise and create a business plan.
After that, I’m usually Facetiming, calling, grabbing coffee or emailing back the insanely amazing people who have reached out to me wanting to help, brainstorming ways to get them involved: whether that’s having them come on a trip to Uganda, help us fundraise, intern or coordinate a speaking event for Jolly at their church or university.
I’m so grateful for each and everyone of you who have messaged me wanting to help.
As you can probably tell, I need it.
So thank you for letting me put you to work in the most random ways.
Yeah, and I could go on and on about the other crazy things or tasks that are on my daily to-do list, but NOBODY wants to or has time to read that…
haha nor do I have the energy to type it all out.
Each day, I do a lot…and everyday, I’m stretched and challenged in a new way.
And yeah, I’ll be honest.
Yes, I’m overwhelmed.
I know I’m in wayyyyy over my head.
Some nights, at the end of the day, when my head hits the pillow,
I can’t believe all that has gone down in this 500 square foot apartment.
Yet, as I type this right now, my heart is stirring.
It is full with excitement and anticipation,
because it is impossible to ignore the momentum occurring.
For most of the last year, there’s hardly been much momentum.
This last year has been filled with many challenges, failures, uncertainties and life lessons.
Many times, the needs for WEND just felt "too big”
and things just didn’t seem to be coming together quick enough.
And as the only full-time American, most days, I didn’t even know how or where to start.
I had so much to do, yet none of it hardly even seemed to get done.
But today, as I sit here typing this from my office chair,
I can honestly say, something is different.
Because over the last couple of months, I have been busy.
Busy as heck. But productive as heck.
And each day, I see checks on my list and progress being made.
I know it’s overwhelming and a lot of work,
but I’m so grateful to be overwhelmed…
because that means THINGS ARE FINALLY HAPPENING.
Each day, I love waking up to emails from people wanting to get involved — I love empowering them, delegating tasks to them and putting them to work.
I am so grateful to the those of you who are helping me reach out to churches, sororities, small groups and universities to schedule speaking engagements for Jolly.
I love scheduling Facetimes or meet-ups with people who found me on Instagram and want to collaborate with WEND.
I love having friends (shout out to Jules & Jamie) who voluntarily turn into interns for me —
I love laying bags all over my living room, asking for peoples’ feedback/improvements, and having people help me with all my random daily tasks.
WEND is not my thing.
WEND is much bigger than me.
In fact, it’s way too big for me.
I’m just a small part in something much bigger.
This is God’s thing —
I’m just inviting people to be apart of it.
And it is going to involve a lot of people to get behind us & pull this off.
There’s a big, collective WE component to WEND.
We simply cannot exist without a bunch of people coming together and lending their
time, talents, resources or connections to us.
I want to share something with you all.
As you can tell, I’ve been spending a lot of time alone….haha...which for me means I get the chance to hear his voice very clearly.
And God’s been whispering something new in my ear…
He’s been telling me:
“Now, is the time. Come close to me, closer than ever…take my hand…I’m your boss… I gave you this job…you work for me…and I will equip you with everything you need to do the job I have called you to do…I don’t call the equipped…I equip the called…now, take my hand, and let me show you how to do this.”
And so this morning, I woke up to my empty apartment and said to myself,
“Ok God. It’s just you and me — and whoever else you bring along on this adventure with us.
Show me how to do this thing. I’m going to need to death-grip your hand, if that’s okay….but just lead me through every single thing that is set before me. I trust you completely, and I know without a shadow of a doubt, that even though I’m here sitting at my desk, all alone…I know I am not alone --I know that you are with me -- through every crazy second of my work day - you are holding my hand, like a loving dad (more so than a boss..haha), and showing me how to do the work you made your daughter to do."
Man I am grateful for days like today.
Whenever I find myself starting to get a bit stir-crazy or feel a bit lonely due to the lack of human interaction (haha it's real...), God allows me to stumble across sweet pictures like this that remind me even though I spend most of my days sitting alone in my office chair behind a screen, that, those people in that picture are who I am really working for.